Hello! I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow with my primary care physician. And for the first time ever, I am actually looking forward to it.
I can’t wait for her to see how much weight I’ve lost. I’m still at 34 pounds, but it’s way less than what I weighed when I saw her in January. And I get to tell her that I’m exercising, and it won’t be a lie! I admit, when asked in the past if I’m exercising, I’ve said “yes, a little,” which was really not that true. The most exercise I was doing was yard work, and that was only when it was warm outside. Now I exercise daily — or almost daily, as I don’t exercise if I’m sick.
And I want to say that this is the best primary care doctor I’ve ever had. She is very nice, and she doesn’t talk down to me. I’ve had doctors in the past talk down to me about my weight, and it made me feel like a child. But she just talks to me like an adult, and she’s given me advice. She doesn’t weight shame me, and I really love her for that.
With other doctors I would lose weight, and they’d say something like “See how easy that was? You could have done that all along!” Like, no, it wasn’t easy. I have mental health issues that make me want to gorge on food. It was not easy at all! But I know that she will just be proud of me, and for some odd reason, I look forward to that.
Usually when I go to any doctor my blood pressure is really high, and it’s always because I’m straight up terrified of just being at the doctor. What if they find something? What if they change my meds? What if what if what if what if … . So, I am hoping since I’m not nervous, maybe my BP will be good. When I take my BP at home, it’s fine! But at the doctor’s office, nope.
My blog post tomorrow likely will be later in the day, as my appointment is in the morning. I don’t like to do much of anything before an appointment for fear of losing track of time. Oh, and I’m one of those people who leaves WAY too early. “OK, the appointment is at 11, and the office is just a few miles away. I want to get there early just in case of paperwork or a line, so I’ll leave at 10:30. Well, what if there is traffic in those 3 miles? Better leave at 10:15.” *Gets there at 10:15 somehow.* I do that ALL the time. I get to appointments and meetups with friends and whatnot at least 30 minutes early almost every time. I don’t want to be late!
Well, I am going to be streaming on Twitch soon, if you want to check it out. http://twitch.tv/frazzled_daisy. I actually am not sure yet what I’m going to stream. I just got a new web cam, after ordering it FOREVER ago, and I’m going to see if I can figure out how to use it.
Until next time!